Omar K.
Alcoholic
Brooklyn
User Status: Standard
Signup: 02-27-2007
Last Login: 10-27-2008
Posts: 13
On Step: 6
Posted: 09-09-2008 12:10 am
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Acceptance is the last to know. Admitting is groundbreaking. Allowing to let go is serenity not surrender. I have today accepted that I do have a brain and body disease. I sometimes choose to call it alcohol. Sometimes I called it my obession. What I dont tell you is that it talks to me. It tells me wicked things. It says work harder to win glory. Miss that day off work because you deserve it. Your point and comments are right and they are ignorant. These are the wicked things. Today I know I carry my disease with me everywhere I go. I constantly talk mentally to it. It is what makes me INSANE. But when I hear someone else talk about their disease its totall serene. I know Im not alone in this insanity. Step 1 tells me Im powerless over alcohol and that my disease has made me unmanagle. Step 2 tells me I Must come to believe a Higher power was that only thing that can restore me to sanity. From the moment I wake up I am purely insane. I read chapter 5 how it works. Then read the st francis prayer in the 12 steps and 12 traditions. I called another alcoholic on my train commute. I text 5 people in the rooms with aa slogans and start a conversation of how they feel and what is their disease doing today and what solutions are they doing to. I DO THIS TO STAY SANE! I choose to change my life because I didnt like how I was doing out there. My disease is incurable. My Working with another alcoholic is my daily reprieve of my conditioning of spirituality. thy will NOT Mine be done.
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Linda W.
Alcoholic
Florida
User Status: Admin
Signup: 02-04-2006
Last Login: 01-05-2009
Posts: 249
On Step: 12
Posted: 09-15-2008 10:49 pm
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Hey Omar! Welcome back! There is a name for that thinking, its called ODAP. Our Devilish Alcoholic Personalities. They even wrote a book about it! I love reading it. It is so true. What's better is recognizing it. Hope to see you in chat!
It's another day that I just cannot find a thing wrong with sobriety! Imagine that!
Keep your head towards the sky.
Your Sister In Sobriety, Linda |
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Omar K.
Alcoholic
Brooklyn
User Status: Standard
Signup: 02-27-2007
Last Login: 10-27-2008
Posts: 13
On Step: 6
Posted: 09-15-2008 11:05 pm
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Thanks for feedback! I agree its so true. Everytime I revisit the Doctor's opinion, I trully amazed how I forget that this disease is of the mind and The body! I don't have a craving for alcohol, because I have not put any in my body for two years. However, my mind occasionaly romance about the idea. This is called INSANITY!!!! This is when calling my sponsor or others in AA and going to meetings, particpating in service( chairs, coffe, sweeping) and being honest and open and willing to listen to learn and learn to listen. I love that you said " It's another day that I just cannot find a thing wrong with sobriety!" Trully amazing to hear that Linda. Again thanks for your feedback. 
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